i want my next birthday party to be a Crafty Beaver Party

some wise words:
Everyone seems normal until you get to know them.

I've learned to pick my battles; I ask myself, Will this matter one year
from now? How about one month? One week? One day?

Being miserable because of a bad or former relationship just proves that
the other person was right about you.

Be really nice to your friends because you never know when you are going
to need them to empty your bed pan and hold your hand.

You are the only person who can truly make you happy.

And finally...Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect, it just means
you've decided to see beyond the imperfections.

i cried myself to sleep last night. i know what's troubling me but im too scared to confront the issue.
why is it that i always want what i cant have?

oh my god 'hmm', you're right. it would've been 5 years.
wow...im even more depressed now than i was since i wrote this blog from this morning.

why do i keep doing this to myself? why oh why abigail...why?

the one person in this world that has managed to hurt me so much in my life has hurt me...again. i dont know why he gets to me. i guess its because i still believe in him and trust him...that's got to be it. all my hurt and sadness is resurfacing again and im sitting here in front of my computer with tears running down my cheeks. i need to go home now. i need someone to give me a hug and never let go. i need someone to kiss me on the cheek and whisper in my ear "i'll never leave you".

im sick of trying to put on a happy face.
im sick of drinking my sadness away.
im just tired of everything.
im tired.

if only i could press stop, rewind and record again.

the funniest thing i heard all day today: "naw she isn't even cute, she is a janky h0r "

"janky whore"? that's priceless. be sure to use this pharse at least once today.

NEW Abby's pictures from Alumni/EIMC Bar Crawl and PSA Formal/PSA Alumni Weekend.

oldies but goodies...
.....liss, fatima, juvy, abby, sharon, marina: we heart sr tk sk
.....jay, p.j., joe, paul


Sharon's pictures from PSA Alumni Weekend, Alumni/EIMC Bar Crawl, and PSA Formal 2004.
Antoinette's pictures from PSA Formal 2004.
Marina's pictures from PSA Formal 2004.

Coming Soon: Joe's pictures from Alumni/EIMC Bar-izzle Crizzle.

My one & only LUV-EEEERRRRRRR...i laab you:

oh my god...would you just take it off already!?

happy 55th birthday papa. me loves yous.

new Sharon's pictures from Spring Break '04 in Las Vegas.

Antoinette's pictures from Spring Break '04 in Las Vegas.
Joe's pictures from Spring Break '04 in Las Vegas.
Marina's pictures from Spring Break '04 in Las Vegas.

Coming Soon: Abby's pictures from Spring Break '04 in Las Vegas.
Coming Soon: Henson's pictures from Spring Break '04 in Las Vegas.
Coming Soon: Jerome's pictures from Spring Break '04 in Las Vegas.

something is different today
...i'm finally at peace
...i'm finally happy

also, i want to say "thanks" to the following people who have helped me along the way
*MommyPapaArchieLiezlRichieMyra...the fam
*LissJuniorFatimaSharonCathyPJIanPaulJohnAntoinette...my girls
*NorwayChrisBJeffAldwinEdChrisGEricGlayn...the lunch crew
*HensonJoeMarinaRachelJeromeJuvyJayRomel...my las vegas trip
*ManshiRachna...my nyc trip
*Mariano's,Leynes',Sibal's,Adao's,Panlaqui's,the EIMC's...my fam


...i finally made it to my happy place...
......im there and there's no turning back......
...yey for me...

my saturday schedule:

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The 1st (and Last) Alumni/EIMC Bar-izzle Crizzle
3 april 2004
uiuc campus
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RULES:
> For 21+ only!
> Participate at your own risk (Abby's drinking rate: 1 drink per bar/club).
> Head out to the next bar/club *5 MINUTES* before scheduled time.
> If there is cover at any of these places, please move on to the next bar on the list.
> This non-PSA event starts at 1:00 PM and ends at 5:00 PM.
> Bring your ID and (if applicable) your UIUC ID too.
> Help Abby get home and change if she is too intoxicated.
> Last gender standing *rules* and has bragging rights.
> Bring your *cells* and cameras and wear comfortable shoes.
> PRINT THIS SCHEDULE OUT!!!
> LAST, but not least: pj + paul + joe must triple kiss every 30 minutes.

CRAWLERS:
Abby--Fatima--Joe--Juvy--Liss--Marina--P.J.--Paul--Sharon--?anyone else?
....that's 6 ladies and 3 guys.

LUNCH / MEETING PLACE:
12:00 PM (This is not part of the Bar-izzle Crizzle)
Qdoba's...upstairs
6th & Green

CRAWLING SCHEDULE:
1:00 PM
Sud's (*tentative* because not sure how long lunch will take)
35 E Green St (between 1st + neil)
opens @ 7:30am

1:30 PM
White Horse Inn
106 E Green (between 1st + 2nd)

2:15 PM
Illini Inn
901 S 4th St (4th & Daniel which is 2 blcks S of Green)
opens @ 11am

***liss' POWER HOUR***
3:00 PM
Joe's Brewery
706 S 5th St (on 5th, S of Green)
Saturday's @ 3pm-2am

3:20 PM
Clybournes (if cover, go to Murphy's)
706 S. Sixth St (S of green)

3:40 PM
Brothers
***liss' POWER HOUR***

4:00 PM
Murphy's Pub (if went to Murphy's @ 3:20 PM, go to Zorba's)
604 E Green St
opens @ 11am

4:30 PM
Legend's

5:00 PM
Crawl back to Arlene/Juvy's and get ready for Formal

7:00 PM
Formal