Hate me for who I am.
Don`t love me for who I`m not.

oh what a month/week/weekend...played in the dodgeball tourney with family and friends, drank, oogled my main sqeeze from behind, drank, met a guy and went on a "date", made a permanent mark, drank, had lunch with my cousins. i just can't wait to finally move to the city.

come out and watch my team and i play in a dodgeball tournament.

5th Annual Dodgeball Days Outdoor National Championships
Saturday, July 24th @ Olympic Park in Schaumburg
Dodgeball USA

(the park is located off of Schaumburg Road, east of Meacham Road -- you won't miss it if you keep going east on Schaumburg because it is a huge park area).

Pictures from our road trip to St. Louis to visit John & Antoinette w/ P.J., Sharon, Fatima -- July 16-18, 2004.

Sharon's pictures from Joe's House Party

today has officially been the worse day of work for me. the worst.

Pictures from Katie's 23rd Birthday @ Belly's

the girls...
.....katie, maureen, jen, me

Pictures from Saturday night w/ Joe, Marina, Chris, Sharon, P.J, Liss, Paul @ Orland Park

drunken moment...
.....pj, me, sharon, paul

one of many new memories w/ friends (sharon, ian, liss, paul, marina, joe, maureen, cedric, katie, p.j.): great america hung over w/ only 4 hours of sleep. te-hehe.

good lord you're hot. too bad im not blond and dumb. too bad you're 30. but ah well, it doesn't hurt to oggle from afar. someone -- for the love of all that is good in this world -- teach me how to flirt and touch at the same time.

you make me sick.
like abby-sees-puke-and-makes-her-vomit-chain-reaction sort of sick.

oh hello weekend. back again so soon? i love you too. what did you say? you're a long weekend? su-weet.

five for fighting @ hob...su-weet.
taste of chicago...su-weeter.
-- mmmMMM: ribeye sandwich, fried okra.
-- not so mmmMMM: chocolate cookie dough egg roll.

professionally speaking: when you want something, go out and get it. that's what i just did. and yes! my hands sweated the whole time.

the one new thing i learned today:

"you lose brain cells all the time. (slap abby's head). see? and you stop producing them after age 26" -- jeff.

yikes! now i wear ear muffs.

heard this in my brother's car the other day...

I'm so tired of being here. Suppressed by all my childhood fears.
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave.
Cause your presence still lingers here, and it won't leave me alone.

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real, there's just too much that time cannot erase.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears. When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears. I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have...
All of me.

You used to captivate me by your resonating mind, now I'm bound by the life you left behind.
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams. Your voice has chased away all the sanity in me.
These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real, there's just too much that time cannot erase.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears. When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears. I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have...
All of me.

I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone.
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears, When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears. I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have...
All of me.

: My Immortal :: Evanescence :

...and i got teary-eyed

PepsiCo Company Picnic @ Brookfield Zoo -- Saturday, June 26, 2004

hellllloooooo WEEKEND!

a friend sent this to me. a sort of afternoon inspiration...
Comes The Dawn

After awhile you learn the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn that love doesn't mean possession
and company doesn't mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead with the grace of an adult
not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build your roads today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have ways of falling down in mid-flight.
After awhile you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
that you really are strong
and you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn...

by Virginia Shopstall

BBQ Par-tay @ Leynes Home -- Saturday, June 19, 2004

my hero

Myra's Birthday Dinner @ Via Carducci Trattoria on Monday June 14, 2004