the one person in this world that has managed to hurt me so much in my life has hurt me...again. i dont know why he gets to me. i guess its because i still believe in him and trust him...that's got to be it. all my hurt and sadness is resurfacing again and im sitting here in front of my computer with tears running down my cheeks. i need to go home now. i need someone to give me a hug and never let go. i need someone to kiss me on the cheek and whisper in my ear "i'll never leave you".

im sick of trying to put on a happy face.
im sick of drinking my sadness away.
im just tired of everything.
im tired.

if only i could press stop, rewind and record again.