streaming thoughts

i havent written in here in a while. so many things have happened, but as you can tell from the pictures, ive been partying it up.

last saturday AM, i went to the american democracy institute summit and saw senator hilary clinton speak. that was pretty cool to be in her presence and hear her encourage the youth of america to be proactive with political issues. it was fun sitting there with chris and jason -- chris and his stupid clap, jason giggling at chris' stupid jokes, they took my ring and repeated some line from lord of the rings -- but what was interesting was seeing the protestors sneak in their posters and pink umbrellas ("out of iraq now") and yell at hilary the moment she started her speech. william mcnary was pretty awesome too. afterwards, chris and i went to joy yee's and bonded some more. that was neat-o. i like chris when we hang out, one-on-one. but when he's with others, hes just mean and belligerent. hehe.

i took a sweet 4 hour nap and maureen and katie picked me up for antoinette's par-tay. 6 tequila shots and 2 martinis later, i was toasty. they went to white castle but i told maureen "i cant make it. can you drop me off at home? im drunk". its like 1-2 in the AM so i figured my cousin and her fiance are asleep. i get in, climb up 2 flights of stairs as quietly as a drunk person can, and im like "shit. i gotta piss". so i drop my pants so i just have my shirt, undies and knee-high socks on (whatever. chicago winters are hella cold). i piss with the door open and i wash my hands and my cousin is standing there laughing at me. with slurred speech "liezl! im so drunk. im sorry. i just have my underwear on. i had to pee. im so drunk. excuse me." then she goes "hey vince!!! abbys drunk and she doesnt have any pants!" aye...caramba.

i wake up at 6am cause my bro and his friend are going snowboardin in galena, so they drop me off at my parents in the burbs before they head out. i get into my bros car and hes like "dang. did you shower?" im like "no. im either really drunk still or hung-over. i had too much tequila last night." this encouraged tony to talk about how tequila shots can ruin a person. haha. i feel asleep on the ride to my parents.

i woke up at 10am to go to church with the parentals. ate brunch with them and then headed off to dick's to buy my dad a couple beanies. it was so much fun cause my mom and i made him try on all these hats. i even tricked my dad a couple times to wear girlie-girl hats...and baby blue one with flowers to be exact. we braved woodfield for an hour then went to home depot to get a fresh tree. i love fresh trees.

last night i took my ding-a-ling and his kuya to sai cafe. excellent sushi place. great conversation, but i came to find out why the boy i was hanging out with a few months ago stopped calling me. it kinda sucks because i forgot about this boy, but things came up again and resurfaced. what sucks even more is the reason why he stopped wanting to hang out with me: my past. its something i cant control, its something i cant change. its just really unfair. why cant guys just come out and say "i dont think your pretty" or "i just want to have sex" or "im not that into you". why hide behind something so lame? something that i can not control? the worst thing is, is that i just wanted to be friends and get to know him. but i cant even have that.

i feel like someone picked me up and put me back into square one. i just dont get it...