it is what it is

a guy that i met during freshman year of college was in town for christmas. since graduation, we've kept in touch through random emails. this past year, we lunched before he left chicago. he has a girlfriend and recently moved out west to be with her. i'm very cautious to label someone as my "friend" but he is my friend. he sent out an email to a few people letting them know when he'd be back in town for christmas. he called me today at 5:07pm and hes leaving tomorrow. whats so funny is that i thought about him this morning and was wondering if i was going to hear from him at all. for a split second, i considered calling him but didn't. so when my phone rang and i saw it was him, i ignored it. i just wasn't feeling it. i didn't want to hear the reason(s) why. i didn't want to make another set of fake plans for the next time he would be in town.

this past weekend was most excellent because a few of my guys from highschool came back from cali for christmas and i hung out with each of them. catching up with friends is something that i enjoy doing no matter how busy my life can get. i just wish this friend enjoyed this too. oh well. it is what it is. you cant change how people are, you can only change how you react to people. and thats what im going to do: not care. i guess you can say that i started not caring at 5:07pm.