broken point...

i never thought this day would come but it has. ive never felt this way before. family is great, friends are great, my boy situation has never been better, my skin looks good :), my place is coming along. whats left? work. i have never felt this overwhelmed before. ive been working @ pepsico for 6 years and ive been on this project for 2 years. everything is a priority; everything is due yesterday; people want to check the box; people want set-in-stone deadlines. but these same people do not care about the longevity of the solution. im in the office before 8am. i work through lunch. i dont eat dinner. im in the office until 9pm. i cant expense a cab ride home. i walk home. but i soon found that my nightly walks from work to home is my only release. its going to suck dookie when the sidewalks get slippery and snowy.

i thought the worst feeling in the world was losing someone you love.

then, i thought the worst feeling in the world is being rejected by someone that you care for.

recently, i learned that the worst feeling in the world is being ignored by someone you like.

but today, the worst feeling in the world is losing the drive and passion that i have for my career. i think ill just sleep in tomorrow...but then again, tomorrow is another day.